Ghosting Along....

Hello Ladies and Gents!

I had an emotional day yesterday. It was a good emotional. I did a major thing. Something only I could do to commemorate the love My Husband and I shared. Now, I know it's different for each person on how they deal with grief.

How I deal is it to have something permanente to stick with me. With that being said my permanent are Tattoos. It is also different for each Widow (the word WIDOW. I still cannot fathom it.) on how they deal with their wedding ring.

For a while I was pondering how to go about my ring. Should I keep it on, should I switch hands, should I make it into something else, etc. From all the stress I have endured as of late, I lost a significant amount of weight in a short period. With that my ring kept sliding off my finger.

I finally got my pearl ring fixed. The 1st ring he ever got me. I wear that every day on my left, along with my fathers ring on my right hand. BTW the picture above is the ring I proposed to David with. He couldn't fit it, until he sent me this picture.

So with all my pondering as to what to do about my wedding ring, I decided to get a tattoo. Now. There has been a lot of people asking "well what if you remarry?" or " Why something so prominent/permanente?". Well, to answer those questions. If there is a time in my life to where there is someone that can convince me and love me to where I will consider remarrying. They will have to understand I had/have my love with David and it was it. If that person is not strong enough to understand that then well, bye. I will need a very strong individual to know my pass and worth, deal with it.

So, on to the good part. The tattoo. I had the pleasure of meeting Aaron a tattoo artist who is also good friends with one of David's best friends. It was befitting for him to do this very emotional tattoo for me. I plan on getting more work with him as well. Which leads me to a photography project I will be doing about tattoos. I will be doing self portraits soon to showcase my story along with others. That will be at a later post.

As to the tattoo itself.

That. SHIT. HURT!!! I mean I have a lot of tattoos but that is by far the worst pain I have felt from getting one. Aaron made the whole thing AMAZING! I cannot thank him enough though.

Video of me getting it(Click here) video is not working here.

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I'd like to add Aaron is one cool cat! I mean look at that shirt!

I thought I was going to ball like a baby after seeing it. I didn't. I went to the movies with my brother to calm my nerves. It hit me driving home. I was hysterical. I felt it solidify. This is it. It happened. Now what do I do? I still don't know. I'm working on it though! This will forever stick with me and I am thrilled to have it a part of me.

You can only grow if you let yourself understand and realize where you are at.

I am at a point where I want to move forward. Not leaving things behind, but more of pushing myself higher with everything I have endured. Keeping the memory of My Husband alive. I'll Move forward but with him in my corner. Always.

Keep pushing through. You are a strong spirit and things will be difficult but you can manifest your greatness.

With love.